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Aaron a.k.a Turtle
Yan Jun <3
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
This feeling sucks. She treats me so good one moment, next moment so cold. Its really tiring. She doesn't really seem to care during school. I have sorted out my thinking. She probably wants to be with her friends. Can't blame her. But i just wish i could hold at least some importance in her heart or something. Ya know? Someone special to her. I'm sure all her friends are more important than me. I'm just nobody. =/. Who am i to say anything? tsk tsk. But i dunno la. This feeling really sucks to the core. If only she loved me more? No. I cannot be too selfish. I am being self centered. I'll just let her do what she wants to. So long she's happy? I'll try my best to be happy.
tired of it all. but i still do love her with all my heart. <3
Aaron.
Cougara blogged at 8:19 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Today was a great day! First off, went for Chinese Dance. Learnt abit of 2009 SYF. Then went on the The Puppet Dance. Kinda cute dance. Then went to class gathering. We headed down to Vista Park, the Rabbit Hole. I swear it was super fun. The Four Heavenly Kings were reunited. Kelvin, Shaoyang, me and Jason. We were all so hyper. Running around like kids. Prank calling others. I haven't had so much fun in a long time. Brothers for life man. Really love being with them. Its just fun and fun. Although i do regret not talking a lot to others. Especially Jiamin. My favourite jiejie wor. <3. Yeahs.. pretty short. really tired le. no energy to blog. tml ba. see ya folks ^^
FOUR KINGS FOUREVER ^^
Aaron
Cougara blogged at 7:30 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
My life's been going downhill. I dunno if its cos its de last week of holidays but something is definitely getting me down. Really down. Maybe its all the MCR i've been listening to. I dunno. But this whole day i felt so lost, so clueless as to what i should be doing. So i just laid in bed feeling extremely down. Why? I feel so terrible. Its really tearing me apart. Why do i have to go through this? Anyway, Boonsiong called me just now. Majority of the things we talked about is... crap. >_>. But we did say some meaningful stuff afterall. Can't wait for dance this Thursday. I hope we continue learning our 2009 SYF. Anyway, i digressed. Back to why i was sad. Actually, i have no idea >_>. Hope i can cheer up soon. Hais. First time in my life i feel so down. Actually i know why. Just don't wanna say. Cheers.
Mixed feelings overwhelm me.
Aaron.
Cougara blogged at 6:09 AM
Monday, June 18, 2007
She finally replied. I know i just posted awhile ago. But for her, its all worth it. I was being to sensitive after all. She's just having some matters to deal with. Yeah. Really relieved after she smsed me. Just a few words from her can really do wonders for me. I still wish i had de right to care for her. I mean like.. I dunno.. Cannot be discouraged. You can do it ^^. I mean i can do it. Mixed feelings. How i miss her. I wish i could hear her voice right now =/. Super short post.
I really miss her.
Aaron
Cougara blogged at 6:19 AM
I swear. I don't know what she's thinking la. She sms me de time sounds so sian and tired. I don't know if she's alright or not. It got me worried la. Maybe i am thinking too much. But its natural that it happens. Then this morning i smsed her a good morning. But she no reply till now. I really worried about her. I feel so.. useless la. But who am i? I have no right to interfere. I really have no right at all. I sound so troublesome. I mean, one moment i think i do not care enough. The next i start thinking i can't care at all. What's my problem? I don't know.. But i must admit. I am really happy that she still loves me. I thank heavens for blessing me with such a good girl. Please don't let me lose her. I don't know what i'll do without her.
Love for all eternity <3
Aaron.
Cougara blogged at 4:08 AM
Friday, June 15, 2007
Holidays are going to be over soon. So boring. Planning for one last outing with the four heavenly kings. I miss them so. Monday, i went with Kelvin and Jason to Marina for steamboat. They are de closest things to my heart. Other than her of course. When i'm with them, its just fun for me. Hmm. That day we went to Marina for steamboat, we also went bowling. But before that, we sat around and played PS2 and such. I really feel that Kelvin's home is like my third home. With huiguan being second. I always feel at home there. And with regards to my post title, i am really tired of everything. I can't tell what she's thinking. One moment i seem to have hope, next moment she dashes it all. Tired of it already. I dunno. So tired of it all. But i won't give up. I won't. Well, this post is rather short. Too lazy to post anyway.
The Four Heavenly Kings! and her. <3
Aaron
Cougara blogged at 12:00 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Hmm. Writing this post as i can't get to sleep. I have a lot of thoughts in my mind. Maybe i should try meditation, an idea i got from Kaiyuan's blog. Maybe that will get me some breakthrough in the scientific realms on the unknown? Of course not. Maybe that will set my life straight. In a path that will perhaps either improve or make my life worse than how bad it is now. I'd pick the former naturally. Obviously, one of my major thoughts is of her. I think i see hints but I am not sure of myself. I know i'm not a good guy. So why should there be hints? (This may sound a little confusing). Before i came to blog, i stared into the deep cyberspace of my phone... (meaning the screen). I was wondering whether or not to SMS her. I decided not to in the end. I assume i would be disheartened by what she would have said. Disheartened, yes. But not beaten. I am not gonna give up. I know this sounds random. But in my sleepy state of mind, this is all i can think of. Well, i mean, who doesn't know she's the only person filling my mind =X. Naw, there are other people too. OMG. This is crap >_>. Still on the topic of her, i still am gonna wait. Cos i know its all worthwhile. YAY ME! <3
I still love her deeply. <3
Aaron.
Cougara blogged at 8:26 AM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
My title says it all. Nostalgia. How i miss coming back here to blog. That longing feeling of blogging. Haha. Enough introduction. I just came back from our Chinese Dance chalet. Before that was dance camp. Let me start with dance camp.Well, dance camp has taught me many things. One of the most important, responsibility. The responsibility of buying food for our fellow dancers fell on me and Shawn. We make a mistake, we starve. Simple as that. Respect was another thing i learnt. Show respect for your seniors for they will be the ones teaching you what you need to learn. This pretty much summarizes it. Other than that, i do believe i had a great time there. I did a lot of dancing. I must have lost some weight. Oh well. Now for the chalet. I can describe it less serious now. Well, i had a great time. That's just general. I found out Para-para can be really fun. And i spent a great deal of time swimming. And on the first night, we had a water-bombing session. That was indeed memorable. After the chalet, i seemed to have developed an even closer bond with both my jiejies, Liting and Jiamin. I can't explain it but now they dote on me a lot and i love them a lot! It's an extraordinary sensation. Hmm. After the chalet, i realized many people do care for me. Jiamin and Liting, naturally. And many others. Like my darling daughter, Gladys. Yeahs. Cheers to all those who care for me! =). I haven't given up on her yet. I know i still love her deeply. But she has been giving me false hope. That's what my friends call it. Its like tearing me apart. I've been told to forget her. But i won't. Hell, i love her too much. I guess i'll let nature take its course...
Once again, cheers to Jiamin and Liting <3
and her <3
Aaron.
Cougara blogged at 7:31 AM