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Monday, October 05, 2009
Finally, i doubt anyone comes here anymore.. i can blog i guess. So much has happened. Life can really screw you over when you try to screw it. I lost something dear to me. Not facing the loss very well. I don't know what to do anymore. People tell me the priorty is to study. Heck, i know that. Haven't I been trying harder? I really am. I bet everyone's experienced this feeling before, being afraid. Fear of losing something forever, but do we still say that when something new comes along to replace it? I haven't the determination to drop everything, but neither am i gathering the courage to carry on. I'm standing in the middle, not knowing what to do. But actually, i do know what i want to do, just don't have the courage. How can everyone be so brave? While i'm sitting alone here crying? I've always hated feeling so weak, but i am remaining weak. Can i grow stronger? What if I have a change of heart? I keep asking myself, I really cannot afford that. I'm tired, but i lack the support i need. I'm troubled, but i don't know who to confide in. The distance between us grows. I'm tired of a lot of stuff. Like how i'm always the number one target. I don't know who's right and who's wrong. I always thought i was one of better judgement, how wrong i was. I now see things clearer, how everything is not how it seems. I don't know what i want in this life anymore. I don't know how to live it, neither do i know what my future holds. I can't say i'm going to end it, so i just gotta walk on, even if i don't know what awaits me. And if the someone i hold dear as mentioned above, and if you ever read this, i'll be waiting.